I am Mira from Tirana, 21 years old. I took the courage to share with you this pain, these sufferings, these tears that have invaded my soul. It all started nicely, sweetly, with endless smiles.
I never thought those moments would last forever. I lived a dream that unfortunately remained a dream again. It was a very beautiful Saturday. I went out with my friends for a coffee. We were having a great time that day and we were just laughing. I was so happy I was amazed at myself.
We went to a nice bar, sat down and were talking. It wasn’t long before a group of boys sat down next to us. One of them caught my eye because he was just looking at our desk all the time. I started shivering because he was pulling me so hard as a boy. It was love at first sight. He did not stay long and got up with his friends. We still continued to look at each other as if we had known each other for a long time. Ai iku.
Without wasting time, I told my friends about his actions. They didn’t believe me and changed the subject. I had no idea what they were saying. In my mind I had only his sweet eyes and smile. After a while we got up too. I went to pay and the waiter gave me a letter. He told me you had that guy who was here a while ago. He had the name E. In that letter he had left me his phone number along with his name. As much as I was surprised and pleased. It seemed very unbelievable to me. I couldn’t figure out if what was happening was true.
I got home thinking about it. I thought for a long time and decided to send you a message. “You had the most beautiful smile in the world” I said – from the girl in the bar. He returned the message very quickly. “You had the most beautiful eyes in the world and I would like to see you again.” From that day on we started exchanging messages and talking on the phone many times a day. One night he sent me an SMS, tomorrow I definitely want to meet, please don’t tell me no.
I was looking forward to it. Ok, I told him, I’m not ruining it. The next day we went out, we talked for a long time. He talked to me about himself many times. We talked about our past and future. Our meetings began to become even more frequent. We could not stay a day without seeing each other. I felt very happy next to him.
Two days later a friend of his had a birthday party and he invited me too. I decided to go to that birthday party to be even closer to him. I felt embarrassed because his company was unknown to me. He tried not to leave me alone at any moment and was standing very close to me. We got up to dance and everyone looked at us in amazement. We hugged and I felt very close to his body. You are the most special person in my life, he told me.
I wish you were mine forever and approached to kiss me. It was a moment I will never forget in my life. I felt something very strange and realized that I loved that man wholeheartedly. We started kissing and hugging as if we had been connected for a year. As soon as the song was over I told him; I am yours forever.
He was overjoyed, you are the most beautiful gift for me tonight, he said excitedly. That night I forgave that man everything mine. From that moment my life changed completely. That night will always be unforgettable for me. So I realized that my story with E. was getting stronger day by day. After a while everything became official and we got engaged.
His parents who did not live in Albania came only for me and loved me very much. I thought everything was going well but I was wrong. As the popular saying goes, after all good comes evil. And so it was with me. I never expected that from him. But like all other men, he did what I would never forgive him.
I don’t know why but I started to feel his coolness, no matter how hard he tried to hide it. It was useless, as I understood and read in his eyes that something was happening to him. I knew him so well that he couldn’t hide it. But I still told myself I was wrong. I didn’t want that to happen to me. I found it very difficult to accept.
Anyway, at least I didn’t go down without explaining myself first. Often when we were together you would text him and he would get up to read to me, which hadn’t happened before. His cell phone was always in my hands while at that time he was no longer taking it out on the table. He didn’t come to see me often, and then when he did, he would leave very quickly with various excuses. I often asked him and told him that I was suspecting something but he was very nervous and denied it. Normal how it would act differently! I realized that something was really wrong and decided to check it out.
I never wanted to get to this point, but when they force you, you have nothing to do with it. It was Saturday and he hadn’t called me to come out. When I got it he answered me very strangely and told me it was for coffee from my school. It seemed very surprising that he rarely came there. Who are you with? With N. said, about a friend of his. I also told him the place where he was. Ok I said, I have a job at home and I can’t go out. He said, “We’re leaving tomorrow.”
I got dressed and made my way there. All the way I thought about the worst. I prayed to God and hoped that everything would go well and that I would not be lied to. I loved her so much that I began to hate her in those moments without even knowing what had happened. I don’t know where I found all that courage and went into the bar. When I saw it I didn’t faint.
I held myself and approached the table. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I thought bad, but not that. He was kissing R. my close friend. I had her as a sister, I told her everything. I had even told him that E. had changed his behavior with me. She, as an innocent, told me to find out what was going on and never to forgive her.
They didn’t see me. I was standing near their table, and I did not have the courage to speak to them. I just cried. After a few moments they saw me, I didn’t speak at all and ran out of the bar. E. followed me from behind but I ran and got home. I got a phone call but I didn’t have the heart to talk. I don’t understand how he looked at me and called me.
I spent five days without leaving the room at all. I just cried and cursed the day I met her and forgave her love. What had I done to make him work this way for me. Our families were waiting for us to set the wedding date. Everything beautiful was ruined and every beautiful dream was extinguished. I thought about all the things we had talked about together. We had made very beautiful plans that would never come true. After much suffering and crying I decided to face both.
I had a great desire to take revenge. I don’t know how but I will achieve the goal I thought to myself. I got E. on the phone and told him I wanted to meet him. He agreed and we left to meet. I had promised myself that I would not cry and stay strong. We met very coldly. With the greatest arrogance he tried to kiss me. I never told him. We sat down and went straight to the topic. I want the reasons, I told him why he did such a thing? You once and then my friend will explain to me. I only love you, he told me. I was no longer impressed by his words.
I had shared the thought that everything between us was over, I just wanted an explanation. I didn’t know where I had gone wrong with it! He did not give me any kind of explanation, he just repeated to me very often that he loved me. Since I would tell him why did you do this to me? Please forgive me he said. I never told him. If it had happened to someone else, I would probably have made an effort, but with my close friend ?! Never! Time passed and he was not giving me any answers to the questions I was asking.
I am not at all touched by your words, I said, it has ended between us and forever, it is useless to continue praying and becoming a child. Since you don’t give me any explanation for what happened, I will ask R. and I still don’t understand how I managed to say all those words to him without shedding a tear. As soon as I separated from him, I went to my friend’s house, because she couldn’t even bother to open my phone and never meet me again. I knocked on the door and my sister opened it for me. Here is R I said?
She said, come on, she’s in her room learning. She just looked at me and didn’t speak at all. Why – I said. I don’t know how it happened, he said. I love E. I got the answer and came out of the house all hateful. I got home and started crying. The family and especially my sister had realized that something was wrong with me. I explained everything to them and told you that my relationship with E had ended. Dad became very upset because the mentality in Albania is like that.
His family intervened so that we could join, especially his sister, who called me every day. I was very sorry because they were very good people. I finally made up my mind. Even though I loved him endlessly, I could not overcome such a thing. I thought it would pass me by, but no. It took me a long time and I couldn’t get over this situation. I missed meeting him. But I never had the courage to meet him, nor did I call his daughter.
The engagement was ruined as it was built, by the families. It’s been 2 years since we broke up and we’ve never met. We haven’t seen each other by chance and I’m very happy about that. I don’t want to meet him or look at him. Even when my friends tell me something, I don’t want to hear it at all. I don’t want to know anything about that man even though I continue to love him with all the strength of my soul. It is enough for me to know that they are together now and are expecting a child.
I sincerely hope they read the article. this was my love for him and his love for me, which I have not yet understood. You mean, like, saltines and their ilk, eh? I do not believe it. He married my friend and is expecting to become a father. How I wish that child was mine. But no, that’s not a euphemism for something else. Anyway I will always love him even though I don’t want to love him. I wish that child was born and raised healthy as he is not guilty of anything.
In short this was my story. Don’t believe everything I said. It is very true that all men are the same. Then when you think you have found true love then you lose it. Strangely we got to know each other and very strangely we parted. Forgive me for taking so long. I wish you all luck and prosperity in life. Thank you for reading my story.